Emo..

This is the first weekend I stayed over in hall, not because of anything, but trying to force myself to study.

I guess I'm just too emo to stay over the weekend. And hall is definitely a good place to emo. I love emo to the maximum!

-emo rayduin-

last week..

This is officially the last week of school term, and that means my exam is next week.

I haven start to study any subject.. and I have just played bridge for 2hrs..

I guess I know my destiny already...

God Bless Me..

I'm sad.. I didn't get A for my tech comm..

depression

I'm so sianz. I'm a perfectionist, yet I know I'm not doing it.

I just want my GPA to be 5.0 !!

But memories just recurred more than you can expected it.

I'm not staying hall, because I can't forget you.

Lonely night...

It's such a lonely night..

a night without warmth..
without any care and concern..

disappointment..

I'm getting to hate myself..

liars

Recurring effect of what you had said.

Can't believe what you said anymore.

I see no light in my room.

I'm scared.. I'm really..

I have just pulled my hamstring while sprinting for softball. Maybe I was being too competitive, and eager to train myself. I want to get back to NTU track team fast enough, and lead the Hall track team. However, overly eager to perform kills me now!!

When I heard a pop sound from my hamstring, my heart sank. I had torn my hamstring before, and I never stop upon hearing and feeling the sound. I was really too eager to train and perform!! DAMN IT !! FML!!!

I'm really scared! I had that feeling before and I almost cannot compete again. And I rested for 6 months, and that was the minimum, and with consistent physiotherapy weekly!! I am so screwed now. I am feeling damn down.

I don't wish to be like Para, miss last year IHG and have to squat. I want to have my own room, able to represent for IHG!! and I want to win!! with this fucking injury, cannot join NTU track, don't even need to think to get into sports hall!!! FML!!!

I'm farking no mood now.. fark off!!

I'm tired..

I'm mentally tired. Trying hard to make myself a mugger, which I'm not born to be one. But I am really super busy this week. Gosh! This is so sianz!!

Sun - Preparing my presentation slides for Monday, an informal training for softball with fun peeps.

Mon - Project presentation (wearing formal), all hall contract bridge meeting, hockey training

Tue - school end late due last lab for the semester, decided to go for this softball training instead, contract bridge training

Wed - only free day for skipping softball training, but got meeting, and got to study for 2 test!!

Thu - Data structure 2nd CA that cost 10%, FOC meeting, Darts training, and no time to study for physics CA on friday

Fri - Physics CA again!!

I remember I forget something for this week. Not sure is what.