A new plan for school..

After complaining for so many days, and grumbling over what had happened. And the real, actual Rayduin appear. My mind hasn't been stopping since I last realised it like probably 10years ago. I have a new plan already.

I'm taking like 6 modules over here. And 5 of them are year 4 modules, and only 1 is year 3 module. So my new plan is clear these, WITHOUT any choice. Then I'm not going to do any more attachment for 2nd semester. I'm going to clear another normal semester in NTU. So I will take all year 3 modules which everyone is taking now, while they are on attachment on 2nd semester. Then my year 4 will have 5 modules lesser, and this gives me more time to work on FYP. I'm determined to graduate with no regrets. I have regretted way too far on many occasions. I will still aim for my gpa 5.0 and dean's list and write model answers again!

I must really ENJOY MY LIFE! Study is not about mugging and memorising, LOSERS! It's about how well you know and how you can apply it!

-zai kia again!

school days..

Yesterday was my first day of school. My first lesson started at 9am, not that early though. The people here are slackers, but not the same kind of slacker as me. Anyway the first lesson was a 2hrs lecture, nothing special except the scottish accent of my lecturer. I just have to pay more attention and listen harder. But I couldn't do it, and I went online instead. This is my way of a slacker. Get job done fast, but slack when it's not important, and studying is not as important as getting a task done. I don't see A+ ahead but many F floating around waiting to be printed on transcript. LOL. I'm too noob for it.

After a boring day of school, went to Topman to buy a shoe. Normal and simple shoe. Didn't really like it a lot but bought because it's cheap. Is that impulsive buying?

2nd day of school is another boring day. The pace is way too slow. Only an hour lecture, and the lecturer used 30mins for introduction and settling rules issue in class. Totally unproductive, I'm there to listen and learn and not being there to listen to nonsense. And it's a raining day, a heavy one. Wore my new topman shoes, got a little wet, but who cares. Lazy to go gym because raining, haven't really eaten, and waiting to skype with family. Probably going to do a more intensive circuit by myself. I got to burn my fats. Even if I am lighter by 2kg, my fats still exist!

I so need to go bank. Settle my bank problems again and hoping I can get my debit card soon. Cash is running low. I'm a poor ass.

-pauper

edinburgh visit..

Well, went to Edinburgh yesterday. It was a long journey of 1hr30mins single ride there. We went Edinburgh Castle, Labyrinth at Mary King's close, Ghost tour. Not that bad for a experience over there, and more importantly, one of the coldest day I experienced in Scotland. The morning was about 2 Degree Celsius. And I haven gear up my suit yet. I'm still in my normal jacket, hoping I can get used to the weather soon before gearing up.

After a long day, we took the long bus ride back, and reached Glasgow at 12am. It was Alan's birthday and we cab down to find him, as he recce the place before we arrive back. We went to a club named " sub-club". As usual, the music in the club is always house music and trance, nothing fantastic or special. Then we went back to our school drinking lounge and continue our drinking spree.

Today, was a rather slack day. I skype with my friend, probably gone through everything under the sun, literally. I believe it's true. :D Do you agree if you are seeing this? Then I went on to supermarket for grocery shopping and prepare for the dinner we going to cook for Alan. I cooked oriental dishes; a plate of vegetables in oyster sauce, hot dogs in baked beans, portebello mushrooms. And my friends' pork chop, and we bought chicken thigh and drumstick, and my friend's cheesecakes. And I kinda learn the cheesecake already, but yet to try it out only. Hopefully it will be a success!

Good things come to an end, hopefully, a good cooking session. The day ended with shagginess and a early sleep to rejuvenate the day.

-chef ray

faraway land...

I have just realized how inconsistent am I by updating my blog. The last post is awaiting for my results back in first semester. That brings back a lot of memories and how bad my gpa was, and even worse in 2nd semester.

And nearing to a year, I am updating here again randomly. This feels a little different compared to the past. I'm feeling slightly heavier than normal as I'm situated now in Glasgow, Scotland. It has been almost a week since I last entered University of Strathclyde. Perhaps the expectation was a little too high, that's why I'm feeling disappointed by the school, environment and people.

My heart felt heavier especially when my core modules are not settled yet. I feel unsecured because I'm not having control over the things I'm doing. The people and the culture here are way too slack compared to Singapore. And of course, NTU is very much a spoon fed environment for students compared to UoS here. A lot of things are meant to be explored and discovered by students, not forgetting more time needed for self-studying too. The thought of it makes me ponder if I'm really here for studies or leisure/pleasure. The professor was telling me about grades. That actually ignite the spark within my inner self, the usual challenge-lover that hoping to fight against the UK, China and other elite international students! I wish to get all A+ and own their asses. A perfectionist and a high ego snobbish idiot! I have always aim for perfect gpa since poly, but I have failed to do so, the most is almost perfecting the gpa. ALWAYS LEFT THAT LITTLE!!!!

I have just skyped with my APUS freshies, not all of them but most of them. I felt good as I can chat with them once again after FOC. Spent the previous few days skyping with family, APUS and other friends. They make my day even though how bad it was. They are always that caring and nice, just that it's a waste that they are not here to be on exchange with me! I MISS EVERYONE! I MISS U!

Flashbacks running through my mind now, and I couldn't use any words to express my thoughts. I can only say, I'm feeling a lot now, more than usual. Maybe I'm better off as a loner, keeping everything to myself again. This is probably the true rayduin.

Countdown to Results!!

on 30th, the verdict will be out.
It will only shows that I'm a lousy person who can't study.
I'm too noob. Afterall, I don't really care.

Let me be emo.
I only care about you.
Hope you are fine. :)

Emo..

This is the first weekend I stayed over in hall, not because of anything, but trying to force myself to study.

I guess I'm just too emo to stay over the weekend. And hall is definitely a good place to emo. I love emo to the maximum!

-emo rayduin-

last week..

This is officially the last week of school term, and that means my exam is next week.

I haven start to study any subject.. and I have just played bridge for 2hrs..

I guess I know my destiny already...

God Bless Me..

I'm sad.. I didn't get A for my tech comm..